Excerpt from my book “WRECKED”

To not have your suffering recognized is a form of violent neglect.  Until recently I couldn’t handle silence.  I had to have some sort of white noise. To drown out those thoughts that squiggle to the surface. 

   But now I crave silence. The neglected memories no longer lay dormant in the back cages of my mind. I’ve freed them. But they still hang around. Laying their permeable surfaces open to new memories. In a interfusion of past and present. Creating something new in me. Like the blend of my art and my writing. Writing preexisted my art, but again I neglected it for a solid twenty years.  Like my hometown, I loved it-but I left it. My friends, I loved them-but I left them. My writing-I loved them, but I left them. My house, the land-I loved it but I left it.  Self protection I suppose. To leave those things, and people that were bound not by their will to my  virulent past; was not only self-protection but temporary salvation.  

  My painting of the woman floating in the water brings its exquisite silence almost tangible upon viewing. Part of me floats in the water with her. Hauntingly still. Waiting. 

After the epic battle of my past and my present, the old me and the new have found a way to coexist. I had no idea that there was room. If there’s room, then there’s room for me to be a mother, wife, writer, artist, sister and often daughter.  

All these years the guilt I carried like an albatross carries little footing. It barely holds on as I kick it off my foot every morning.  “WRECKED”©️

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This painting was the one that threw me into the ER with a TIA, my bad though. I was sealing the gold leaf with bare hands. Had it ALL over my hands for hours. I was afraid to touch it, but TODAY I doubled gloved it up and finalized the fireplace. Side note my memoir should be done by Christmas then on to find a publisher.

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Shades of Water exhibition

The two pieces will be at the Mezz Gallery in the Montalban Theater in Hollywood from 11/16-1/31. I will be at the opening reception for the group show Friday the 16th 6pm

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“Last Man” 40x30, acrylic $3200

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 “Impermanent” 48x48, acrylic  heavy texture cherry blossom $3800

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48x48 abstract Portraiture Done

I’m varnishing the rework of my abstract portrait/koi piece. This took a long time to get that dimension. It’s one of my favorites now. I switched from Gamvar varnish to Golden UVF, this one needs solid UV protectant. 

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Finished commissioned Cherry Blossom panels

My collectors who commissioned the large ballerina paintings commissioned two 48x30 cherry Blossom panels for their beautiful home.   

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Just varnished  

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Textured blooms and branches  

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I did an alcohol pour for the background then contrasted where needed

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Off to their homes

Said goodbye to two of my paintings this past weekend.  I love these pieces so it's was extremely hard.  

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Commission 36x36. Based on my 48x48.  The collector loved the larger one but didn't have the space. Thick textures on the blooms

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And these are my old yucky floors. My husband installed new ones. Now the kitchen is next.  

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Finished with a commission

Starting a new 48x36 blending portrait art, geometrics, and splatter

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Day 2

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Varnishing finished commissioned piece  

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